Tuesday, October 25, 2011

realizing my homesickness

when i first entered the doorways to knutson, i remember finally i was able to leave home and froget everything i did back in my home town and have a fresh new beginning. After months of football torture and dealing with everyday problems like homework, washing my clothes, talking to teachers about my grades, i soon finally realized i had missed home more then i thought. When first moving out i never thought i would be this homesick that bad, but dealing with everything and not being able to do the things i loved growing up in a small community, i guess can say it all finally caught up with me and made me miss home more then ever before. I would always tell everbody back home that im not going to miss any of them and that i would do fine on my own, well i could do fine on my own its just hard to realize that the everyday things i used to do isnt possible unless i move back home. I never regret coming over here, this school maybe me more mentally prepared and pyscially prepared then i ever was staying back home and not experiencing all the wild and crazy that i would never had thought would happen to me without coming to this university and having a first hand experience myself. In my hometown i was the only boy to actually get out of bishop and move to another city, and i was the first guy in my school in years to play college footbal (since we hardly had any talent come out of a town of only 3,400). I maybe be transfering schools and getting out of here, but my passion for football is still contiuning at a bigger and more intense level that i would enjoy to experience first hand. Everytime i go back home people are always talking to my asking how im doing over here and am i ever going to come back home and play for the local university? its always the same answer of cours," i dont know yet, i might be getting to old for this".
Moving back might be the hardest thing for me making all these new and unique experience with people i would probably stay friends with til i graduate hopefully, so this wasnt a waste of a semester, it was a fresh start to a new beginning.

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Going back home

Going back home this weekend made me realize how much i missed everybody and the community so much. I hate to say it but im actually getting home sick from thinking about leaving home on the days i have to go back to Texas Lutheran to go to class.When i left wednesday evening after football practice i felt like a huge wait has been lifted off my shoulders and that now its time to have a worry free time without worrying about homework,school, practice and many more distractions.The first day i got there i literally just slept all day to catch up on my beauty sleep of course, next i just relaxed with my old friends and family and talked about the most random things. Friday night i went to watch my little cousin play with my old high school (of course they lost but thats not the point) and reconnected with alot of my old high school friends and close family friends i havent seen in months. It felt good to tell them i was actually going somewhere to do something i love and everybody was cheering for me to go to kingsville to play for the javelinas, but i just told them," dont worry i'll see about going there next year". on the last couple of days i was there i hung out with my older brother and went fishing in the night time and had a really good time, but recounting on these memories make me think of going home so bad to do the things i love and hang around the people i trust. Its fun going back home, but reality settles back in as usual and tells me i have more important things to do now like concentrate on football and academics for i could hopefully be something successful in the future. Ending on this last note, i've been through alot to get here and letting these get in my head are just holding me back from the things i need to get accomplished. Yeah college is hard but hey!! nobody ever said we were just going to walk through one door and get our college degree through the next. So see yal next week and hope yal are keeping up with my blog and keep your heads high for those of yal who go to college, you only have a rough 4 years left to graduate hopefully for some.

Monday, October 10, 2011

what it means for me to come to TLU


Living in a small town has its downsides and perks. Knowing that I never have to worry about traffic or knowing anybody is a plus, but everybody knowing everybody gets kind of annoying after awhile and see the same people and things everyday is pretty boring of course. In a town of 3,400 knowing everybody isn’t a big deal, but living in a small town isn’t the life style I wanted to live all my life. Getting out of my hometown is something few people in my high school actually don’t accomplish(which is sad to say). Me playing sports and going to college is something I enjoy and knowing that not many people from my old high school don’t have the chance to do that makes me feel even better getting out of that god forsaken place. I miss everybody, But coming to TLU is an experience I’ve been awaiting for and hopefully the upcoming year is something I wont ever forget.Playing football at the college level is something I never thought would happened after tearing my acl my junior year. Football hasn’t always been my passion, coming from a small town I played every sport there knowing it will just get me better and keep me active. During my junior year of football, I was getting calls from schools all over the country wanting to look at me for football(which was a big deal knowing hardly anybody in my hometown went anywhere for football). I had busted my butt that summer and was in the best shape of my life, but after a serious injury during football practice, I had to work 10 times harder to come back and help my team my senior year. TLU of course wasn’t my first choice, but after visiting the coaching staff and the people here I figured it would be the best choice to come here and try it out for a year to see how I like it. And so far I don’t regret my decision to come here knowing I make new experience’s everyday and go to a great school as well.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

feeling the stress of college

After being in college for over a month and a half the stress of college work and playing football for Texas Lutheran University is starting to be overwhelming and hard to manage now. College life is fun and i enjoy every minute of it but know work is starting to catch up with me, now i have to be on the top of my game and try to finish everything on time for i dont have to lose any points on my papers. But what can i say nobody ever said it was going to be easy of course. College is pretty easy if you manage everything, but if your a slacker (like me) college just gets more and more diffucult everyday you encounter the classroom work and dont get any of it at all. Living here in the dorms is not helping much at all, knowing you dont have anybody to push you through your homework or have your parents yelling and screaming at you too finish or you cant go out or cant watch television for a week or some type of punishment that your parents can put on you. But it's also kind of nice knowing your on your own and you could do whatever you want but your stress levels go way up if you dont take care of everything on time, luckily i've been keeping up with all my school work (except biological systems, it's killing me right not!) and with football pretty well. My stress has been building up nearly everyday i go to class, knowing i have a ton of homework to do and also have to deal with sports but at the end i would hope all the hardwork and effort i put into everything pays off in the end, because working this hard and spending so much time doing as much as you can to get everything accomplished would pay off after i graduate. College is a stressful environment filled with tough times and piles on piles of homework, but just think about how this would affect you in the long run and remember never to give up and just keep on going til you cant go anymore. well this what i think about how stressful college is and i know everybody doesnt agree with me, but i never said everybody would agree. So until next im out and have to finish all my homework as usual.